Writing is like a lifeline for me. It's my therapy.
I don't write for perfection. I don't want perfection. There is a certain honesty in flaws. I repair things that don't sit well with me, but sometimes I really don't mind enough to change it. Be assured, there will be plenty of poor form, misspellings, improper use of vocabulary, and grammatical errors within these pages.
Also within these pages, you will see bits and pieces of who I am exposed. Lots of what you read will not be pretty, none of it will be pure, and some might even be frightening.
If someone offered me my innocence back, I wouldn't take it. Yes, I wish it could have been lost in different circumstance, but shedding it is part of evolving and becoming whole. Without sacrificing innocence, you would be turning your back on so many experiences that can build you into something more. I want to be more.
That being said, keep in mind that not all of what you read will be about me. A fair share of this site is fiction. My journal and blog entries are my actual thoughts (at that moment at least), but all else may or may not be. Sometimes I use writing to tap into realities outside of my own, to imagine another's circumstance or feeling - good or bad. A lot of it is simple daydreaming.
In some ways, I envy actors their ability to become a character, portray something different and get paid to do it. They can be the good or the bad without betraying some strict code of what society expects a person to be. Actors have the talent to give a character physical presence. They are performers whereas I am a storyteller. My words perform for me. The keyboard is my stage.
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